Life-ish Now-ish

Birth Day 2020 It is my birthday. I’m now 50. And, being halfway to 100, in a way, it feels like this ride is halfway over, and I wonder to myself, what will be next? Looking back, I’ve always wanted to do something to make things better; something to help “save the world”. I think this feeling was always there. I remember back to when I was just starting to think of the answer to the question, “why are you here?”, and there were these TV commercials about the famine in Ethiopia, and not just commercials, but at church we also were encouraged to collect money in a “rice bowl” (made of paper folded into a box that looked sort of like a bowl with a top and a slit in the lid to put in coins) so that rice could be bought to feed the people there, and I had that rice bowl in my room, and I think I may have taken it by bus to the school, and I just wanted to be able to help the people I was a bit of an odd duck at that time. My parents lived far back off the road, and my backya...

I - This is going to get bad. Real bad. Like the crap you can not imagine bad. Good people are going to start turning on each other. Distancing is not enough. Being able to protect your right to distance is! I hate to say it. In a civilized world you can call for help. Soon, if you can not help yourself. You are going to be screwed, because there is not going to be enough people to serve all that need. Those people with bad intentions know that too. O - I feel like you think this sort of thing has never happened before. Our security lies in the size of our family. Our family is the size of our circle of trust. I - I do trust them.. I trust them not to come. They will respect my space. I have been places, I have seen things. I know what people are capable of. I have seen some really bad things. Things you can not unsee. I am not going to bother anyone. I just want to be left alone. I want my space respected. I will protect that space. It is my most important right. My right to live!...